Bach 16
Argh , now super angry & upset in the same time. Fml !
Seriously some bitches think too highly of themself .
They just think that they're those 'CHAOAHLIAN' or ' CHIOBU ' in our school . Like seriously wtf , Call my name kanpui ah . I didnt do anything to you all right & don't even be bother.
BUT you're like those finding troubles, Always I heard people call my name I turn back & see you all. _l_ what you all want . You can call my name infront of my why choose to called it when you're behind plus when I'm alone . Like so lame you're like 'AKALIAO' always go together . Scared one people go then we say you all ah . reallywhat , don't disiao call for fun . Like very fun like ALL bwang chicks . I think I have no wrong when I'm writing these down , because you all deserve it , who ask you all disiao me _l_ like dontknow disiao similj. please go bangbang yourself up .
Sorry readers for reading this kind of post but seriously I'm too angry !!!
anyway , These few days I cant sleep well because like almost everynight I cry. Because I miss my ahgong too much . Even I see his tablet I feel fucking upset & think those rubbish things like should I die so I can see ahgong or commit sucide . but i still think again , i have to live happily because my ahgong doesn't want to see me like this although i really miss him , & Ahgong i'm really sorry):): Why my tears flowing down again....)': during those time @ songka, I have been busy helping out and burning those paper and sit beside ahgong coffin and see his face.
I keep on seeing his face and things back those time we are chatting or playing .... I really happy that I have a nice ahgong like you <3 ! thought you're not longer with us i still can feel your beside protecting me & family ^^ . but I can't see you .
& have one day I talk to myself @ a corner after the songka as i think too much , my mum thought i was having depression.. I REALLY WANT TO CRY OUT LOUD ! BUT WHERE ? I DONT WANT TO LET MY FAMILY SEE AND FRIENDS SO I AT NIGHT CRY.. WITH NO SOUND I FEEL SUPER UNCOMFORTABLE MY HEART LIKE SO ACHE-ING. PLEASE CAN HELP ME??! ): I HOPE I CAN WALK TRUE THOSE SAD TIMES , I HAVE BEEN PUTTING ON MY FAKE SMILE .....
Thanks everyone for reading my blog , hope you dont find it lame or what because i seriously dontknow where should i write these all are written from my heart . Thanks ! ..
